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CONTENT NOTICE

WARNING
Each and every sentence in this book may fuck with your brain.
Some of them certainly will.
Proceed with caution.
OR WOULD THIS BE BETTER:
Every single word in this book might fuck your head.
Some definitely will.
Youā€™ve been warned.
ā€œVery Bad Kingsā€ ends on a cliffhanger and may contain some triggers, including:
- Bullying & degradation
- Drug & alcohol use
- Kidnapping
- Toxic relationships
- Prostitution
- Explicit sexual situations
Please take these content notices seriously. Your mental health matters.

JAXON

Weā€™re going to play a game.
We are cruel bastards, moving people like pawns to be sacrificed at our whim.
Youā€™re our stakes. And you, and you, and you.
I put your pretty head on the checkered board and have you capture the enemy king.
Maybe youā€™re my bishop.
My rook.
My knight in shining armor.
Maybe youā€™re even my queen.
Who can tell?

GAME OVER

They are coming at me like a pack of dogs ā€“ or like wolves, their eyes trained on the kill. There are five of them, as different from each other as night differs from day, and yet they all share one thing:
They are full of desire.
They are full of thirst.
For revenge.
For retribution.
For me.
Five pairs of eyes are fixed on me, five dark faces hidden behind the black-and-gold masks of the Kings, leaving the eyes and lips uncovered only for three of them. Each of their mouths is twisted into a different kind of seductive smile.
I am trapped.
They have won.
The chair I am chained to wonā€™t move across the floor.
I have to flee but they are coming closer.
I can already hear their breaths.
Theyā€™re close enough for their seductive smell to cloud my senses.
The middle one of them is taking a step forward, roughly grabbing my hair and yanking back my head as he approaches my lips. I feel his finger stroking across my cheek as if he were running a blade over my skin.
ā€œYou lost,ā€ Jaxon is hissing. His voice is reminiscent of a hunter on the prowl: silent and dangerous and beautiful enough to lure me into his trap time and time again, all the way until death. ā€œWhy didnā€™t you just run while you still could? Werenā€™t you taught that a chess match is over virtually every single time once the queen is out of the game? Seems thei havenā€™t told you that. And there theyā€™re supposed to be one of the best universities in the country.ā€
Laughter ripples through the room like rain washing over me. I am not alone. Not alone with these five sinister figures, no. The entire lecture hall is filled. We have an audience, a faceless collection of students who cannot wait to finally see me fall.
I will not fall.
Nothing, no one will make me leave Kingston before I graduate.
This is my only chance of turning my life into more than the hell it used to be, and that it has once again become with the Kings trying to destroy me.
I wonā€™t let a single one of those sons of bitches win, though.
ā€œYou still donā€™t seem very scared of us,ā€ Jaxon whispers, coming close enough to my face to make me feel the electric tension he has always ignited in me. For a brief moment, memory of his hot body on mine surfaces. I remember him thrusting deeply into me. Itā€™s as if my head were once again between his hands while he is drinking in every minute movement of my face, watching what Reece and Sylvain are doing with me and how itā€™s turning me onā€¦ Then I remember everything he has done to me, and it cures me instantly.
ā€œOh, I am incredibly scared of you,ā€ I tell him with mock fear, in a voice that is driving him crazy even now. He comes close to losing his calm every time I challenge him.
I have long understood that Jaxon wants to defile me all the more when I refuse him. More than defile, even: heā€™s trying to kill me emotionally.
And he had very nearly succeeded.
ā€œToo bad that Kingston wasnā€™t even able to teach you some manners. You really should know,ā€ Jaxon is clucking, ā€œbetter than to lie to me, little Belle.ā€
ā€œOh, I merely studied under the master of deceit, you know?ā€ I just cannot but provoke him.
There I am, sitting tied to my chair, surrounded by a crowd of gawking students and facing five sons of bitches yearning to eat my soul alive, and I cannot but provoke Jaxon Tyrell.
The king among the Kings.
The man on the throne of the elite.
My downfall in human shape.
Mine, and that of hundreds of other women stupid enough to fall for him.
Jaxon Tyrell.
Maybe I am suicidal after all. Wasnā€™t I always told that no one at Kingston University should ever oppose him if they planned to keep on studying here?
Jaxon squints his cold blue eyes. His is the only face that I can read in spite of the mask, as easily as if we were meeting in bright sunlight. I know Jaxon Tyrell. I know him all too well.
All the others are blurring into the faceless mass behind him. Everyone who doesnā€™t want to be recognized is using camouflage. Theyā€™re covering their faces with scarves or have dark hoods pulled down at the front.
I wonder if Harper is among the audience.
ā€œYou almost won this game, Belle.ā€ Jaxon is speaking louder now as he steps back. ā€œYouā€™ve impressed me. Iā€™m almost a bit sad to have to say goodbye to you. It was so close.ā€ He holds up thumb and index finger only slightly apart. ā€œAnd it was so very entertaining. I wouldnā€™t want to miss any of what happened in the last few months.ā€
My heart is racing as I struggle to bear Jaxonā€™s arrogance. That is when the lights are turned on in the rear of the lecture hall. Then the entire coridor lights up brightly.
The audience, craven idiots that they are, are moving back into the rows to avoid the cone of light in which three women stride through the upper door.
Three masked women. My heart breaks the moment I realize who has made their appearance.
There they come, my enemies, my rivals. Each of them is stabbing my heart in her very own way.
They are all wearing shimmering white ball gowns hugging their slim figures. All three of them are beautiful: impeccably so. Itā€™s just their personalities that render them uglier than anyone else in the room.
Sylvian and Reece move away from the Kings, stepping towards the women and leading them back to the center.
They betrayed me.
Each in their own way.
They have delivered me to Jaxon Tyrell and now they want to watch my end together with their lying brides!
ā€œOh, are you sad Sylvian picked someone else?ā€ Jaxon is asking me as he notices me look. Lightning-fast, he bends towards my ear, though his voice doesnā€™t change as he speaks, allowing everyone to hear him. ā€œHow could you ever believe heā€™d choose scum like you?ā€
His words hit me hard enough to make me have to fight down tears.
The audience is jeering when Jaxon suddenly pushes back my chair. I scream in panic because I cannot catch myself, but he grabs me a moment before I hit the floor. Reaching around the back, he undoes the buckle of the belt holding me to the chair. Then he drops me the rest of the way, and I have to support myself on both elbows on the floor as I am lying twisted in front of him.
ā€œRun,ā€ he whispers, and this time I am the only one to hear him. His voice has lost all glamour. Heā€™s done playing. The only thing he still wants now is retribution.
I glance at Reece, then at Romeo and the other King whose name I do not know. Is it Zayn? All three are staring back at me from expressionless golden masks. They are going to help Jaxon ā€“ that much is clear. They will do anything to make their leader happy.
And he wonā€™t be happy until I am lying broken on the floor, never to rise again.
Until I am held down by true chains.
Until I am bleeding.
Until I am screaming in pain.
ā€œIā€™ll run tonight,ā€ I whisper to Jaxon. ā€œBut Iā€™ll be back in time for the first class in the new semester.ā€
Jaxonā€™s attractive, sculpted face is morphing into a hateful grimace. ā€œYou wouldnā€™t dare.ā€
ā€œNo one, not even you, will keep me from taking the best chance I will be getting in my life. You picked the wrong enemy for your game. Youā€™d have to kill me to keep me from coming back.ā€
The look Jaxon is giving me is too close to a killerā€™s stare. I start sliding away across the floor. Heā€™d kill me. I have known that for a good, long while. That means I have to make sure that he canā€™t do so without being in trouble.
I would have to become trouble for him on all accounts.
For all of them.
One last time, I look around the crowded, dimly lit hall. I look into the face of Jaxon, then into the concealed one of Sylvian, who demonstratively links his hand with that of his princess. The gesture alone seems enough to drive a spike through my heart.
Reece seems as calm as ever. I almost regret having to declare war on him. Once I become his enemy he surely wonā€™t be as ā€¦ nice anymore.
ā€œSee you next semester!ā€ I call, getting plenty of boos and hisses in return. I look at eight hate-filled pairs of eyes before I run. I flee.
But I only do so to return better equipped.
The war hasnā€™t even started, you sons of bitches!
Not a single one of you will ever find their way back into my heart!

JAXON

Hello, beautiful.
Welcome to Kingston.
Itā€™s awe-inspiring, isnā€™t it? This university, founded by our ancestors to let people like you and me acquire knowledge no one else would be able to teach us.
Youā€™re wrong. Kingston isnā€™t a place for impoverished scholarship holders like you to dedicate themselves to studies of business administration, philosophy, politics, or science.
The only thing youā€™re going to learn here is how to survive among people like us.
The elite.
But trust me on this one.
Your lessons will be hard ones.
And if youā€™re not doing your homework properly, Belle, Iā€™m afraid weā€™ll have to punish you ā€¦

CHAPTER ONE

MABLE

The taxi is looking like an alien craft between all the black sedans. Itā€™s a spot of yellow that just wonā€™t fit, standing out like a sore thumb in this scene of Bentleys and BMWs. I have never seen this many expensive, extravagant cars in one place before. The same goes for drivers opening doors, pages loading suitcases onto gilded carts, and fashionably dressed young adults saying goodbye to their rich parents in polo shirts and trouser suits.
The taxi is crawling down the congested street. The row of luxury car upon luxury car just wonā€™t end. Nervously, I am folding the page with the directions to find my dorm in my hands, on the lookout for students not looking like they got their clothes from Rodeo Drive. Isnā€™t there anyone normal studying at this university at all?
ā€œHouse 17, Maā€™am?ā€ the driver asks me with a thick Southern accent. I nod at him. We couldnā€™t be any farther removed from Texas here. ā€œIā€™ll stop up there, then.ā€
I nod again as he indicates his turn and waits for as many as three pages crossing the street with ten suitcases. The student next to them, talking on her phone as she is walking, looks as if she hasnā€™t ever even touched a suitcase in her life before.
The moment the group has crossed the street, a red sports car is dashing past us, engine howling, only to brake right in front of the taxi and slide into the only free parking spot anywhere in sight.
A student in a close-fiting azure shirt, his hair a golden brown, emerges from it, casting a glancing look our way before turning to a blonde with three suitcases who is jumping to welcome him, screaming like some groupie.
ā€œDickhead,ā€ I mutter, watching the guyā€™s hands slide under the girlā€™s scant skirt. His fingers sport ostentatious signet rings, and heā€™s reeking of money like a dung heap reeks of manure.
ā€œI canā€™t stop here, Maā€™am,ā€ the driver says with an apologetic smile back at me. He ends up parking half a mile away at the very end of the row of sedan cars, turning off his taximeter. ā€œThatā€™s 28 dollars and fifty, Maā€™am.ā€
I give him thirty, even though I canā€™t really afford tipping.
When the driver gets out of the car, I enjoy a moment of feeling as if I were going to have help just like the other freshmen. He leaves it at loading my many bags, two totes, and my broken suitcase onto the sidewalk, however, before clapping me on the shoulder and driving away without another word.
There I am standing, at the fringes of elegant society, with more luggage than I can carry, and at least half a mileā€™s distance to walk back to my dorm.
Itā€™s alright. The euphoria of having been accepted at Kingston University ā€“ by far the most renowned one in the country ā€“ is drowning out my dull feeling of not belonging here.
With two bags over my shoulder, my suitcaseā€™s handle in one hand and the two totes in my other, I set out down the sidewalk. Everything else has to stay behind for the moment because I simply cannot carry it on my own. I am feeling eyes on me as soon as I have passed the first group of parents embracing their charges.
Keeping my head high, I try to pretend not to notice the derisively set mouths, the disgusted eyerolls, and the pointed pity on the adultsā€™ faces. I stubbornly trudge along, feeling more and more like a condemned woman on the way to the scaffold with every further step. Thatā€™s bullshit, of course. I have been accepted at Kingston because I worked hard for it.
Why would I feel bad about that?
From afar, I can spot the red sports car with a few students crowded around it. I try to focus on that spot in the distance as I keep walking, dragging my suitcase and ignoring the pain from the tote cutting into my hand.
No one is offering me any help. I hadnā€™t really expected it, but the part of me that loves a good fairy tale would have loved to get some. Once I have finally reached the red car, I drop totes and suitcase to treat myself to a break. This is where I have to turn onto the footpath through the park. It's just a few more steps now.
ā€œOh, look there. A homeless girl from the city.ā€ The high voice is coming from the group of students. Some of them are glancing my way with wry smiles before turning away again. The blonde who has spoken is studying me as if I were some animal in the zoo, a different species that may have wandered in here by accident. ā€œIsnā€™t she cute? Maybe we should give her a few bucks to buy a new tote with. That one seems about to break any second.ā€
The women standing around the blonde are laughing at me.
ā€œLeave her alone, Clarisse,ā€ one of the students, reveling in a muscular manā€™s arms, tells her. Her lip curls derisively when she notices me looking at her. ā€œSheā€™s not worth your notice.ā€
Putting on a mirthless smile, I bend down again to pick up my things. Iā€™ve only taken two more steps before the blonde moves away from the group to stand in my way.
ā€œThis isnā€™t a place for you, Cinderella,ā€ she hisses, narrowing her pretty eyes to small slits. Not even her personality can destroy her amazing looks. Her face is doll-like without any blemishes, her figure as athletic as it is elegant. Sheā€™s wearing a modest blouse and a short skirt, and I remember that she was the one greeting the guy who took aways our parking spot. ā€œGo and crawl back to where you came from.ā€
Clarisse. The name fits her.
My mouth feels dry as I struggle to respond. A smart response, some glib retort ā€“ why canā€™t I think of anything? Talking in front of all of these rich people looking at me as if they hated me isnā€™t easy. I may have imagined a hundred times what I would do if such a thing were to happen, but reality feels so many times worse.
Since the blank in my head just wonā€™t morph into words, the only thing I can do is step around the stranger to simply pass her by. I should have expected her to make it a bit harder for me, but her brutality does come as a surprise. Clarisse deliberately takes a step towards me, pushing me. Laden as I am, I lose my balance and fall.
My totes scatter their content on the sidewalk, causing laughter to surge up around me. Blushing a deep red, I scramble back to my feet, picking up my things from the ground, and only noticing that I have cut open my right hand when blood stains my new writing pad red. Fuck it all. Tears are burning in my eyes. I keep my head down as I stumble forward with what I could get my hands on quickly, leaving my suitcase behind. I need to get to my room. Thatā€™s the most important thing right now.
Maybe the students will have disappeared into their own apartments ā€“ there are barely any simple dorm rooms in Kingston at all ā€“ by the time I come back.
Luckily, none of them are following me when I step through the door to house 17. I am enveloped by the acrid smell of cheap detergent in a corridor that looks like it hasnā€™t been inhabited in years. Nine other scholarship holders were admitted to the Tyrell Foundationā€™s program along with me. Where are they?
ā€œHello?ā€ I ask cautiously. There is no response. The building seems abandoned. I find my room, trying the key I only just collected from the main building. It fits, and I enter. The doors wasnā€™t locked, and my room isnā€™t empty.
Sports Car is sitting on one of the two beds, his head thrown back, his legs spread far apart, and a delicate woman between them is giving him a blowjob.
I freeze, staring at them. Itā€™s the only thing I am able to do for a moment: Stand there. Watch. Watch the girlā€™s lips quickly jerking down the guyā€™s dick. Iā€™ve stayed away from men so far to never experience what happened to my mother, but Iā€™m quite certain that this guy is rather well-endowed. It isnā€™t the first time I walk in on someone having sex. Itā€™s not a rare thing to see johns fuck our neighbors on Saturday nights in the trailer park.
This is different, though.
The entire guy is different.
His azure t-shirt is loosely pulled up to reveal an athletic, impeccably tanned belly underneath. The signet rings on his hands seem elegant rather than ostentatious, and his hair catches the sunlight in a golden shimmer, making his relaxed expression look downright angelic.
Since this is my room and I do need to put my things down, I clear my throat to draw their attention.
The air in the room seems to change when the guy opens his eyes. His look captivates me so intensely that the skin on my arms breaks out in goosebumps. Then he lifts his hand, putting it onto the neck of the woman in front of him, holding her down dominantly. She whimper when he presses her head into his lap while keeping his eyes fixed on me.
His eyes flash with the gleam of lust. His lips open sensuously, his hip twitches, sending a cold shiver down my entire back. As he comes, the stranger is looking at me as if I were the one making him do so. As if the girl crouching between his legs were just a side note.
Following his orgasm, he drops back, releasing the student, and treating me to a lopsided smile. ā€œDoes the hole youā€™ve crawled out of not have any doors?ā€
ā€œWhat?ā€ I ask, perplexed.
The girl is retreating from him, casting a shy glance at me as she wipes her mouth. She remains kneeling in front of him, like the women in the trailer park do when their johns want them to pretend to be submissive.
ā€œI asked if youā€™ve never seen a door before?ā€ the Adonis repeats his question. He remains sitting in front of me with his fly shamelessly open. ā€œSince you donā€™t seem to know to knock before you enter a room.ā€
Now that heā€™s entirely uncovered, I can see his impressive length. His shaft is glistening moistly, binding my attention as if Iā€™d never seen a male member before.
ā€œAnd dicks are new to you, too, eh?ā€
Biting my tongue, I turn my eyes to the ceiling. ā€œThis is my room and Iā€™d like to put my things in it now.ā€
Thereā€™s not a sound in the room. I try to pretend that the two of them werenā€™t there while I put the books I am carrying in my arms onto the other bed. When I am about to turn back to the door, I hear his voice.
ā€œLeave.ā€
I vaguely understand that he doesnā€™t mean me. Not planning on staying either, however, I reach for the door handle.
ā€œI didnā€™t mean you.ā€
Blushing deeply, I turn around while the girl ā€“ a slim Asian in a scant summer dress ā€“ slips past me. ā€œIā€™m aware,ā€ I tell him firmly. ā€œBut the last thing Iā€™m going to do is take orders from someone like you.ā€
The stranger raises an eyebrow, suddenly straightening to his full size and closing his belt. The rings on his hands are flashing in the sun. ā€œIs that how it is?ā€ he asks, his rough voice causing an unpleasant tingle in my stomach as he advances on me.
Even though I am frantically trying to find some words to throw at him, my tongue is curling up and keeping me from speaking. Once again, the only thing I can do is flee.
ā€œYou mean youā€™re not going to suck my dick just because I tell you to?ā€ he asks, his voice even lower.
The question is so impertinent and his entire behavior so disgusting that I want to hurt him. I have learned early on how to defend myself against men.
When I turn around again to look at him, however, the world seems to grind to a halt for a moment.
Heā€™s smiling at me from underneath his long eyelashes, and my heart skips a beat.
Maybe itā€™s just not my day. Maybe I havenā€™t had enough water, or the many super-rich students out there in the street have caused my brainā€™s synapses to melt. In any case, I am standing there for a moment, unable to do anything other than stare at the stranger as if he were radiating some sort of glamor. As if he were reflecting his surroundings like clear water. His eyes are as blue as the sea, and his smile is as welcoming as a warm summer morning. Feelings suddenly stir in me, a flicker of yearning, the certainty that this man has sprung right from the fairy tale my mother told me when I was a child.
A savior.
A prince.
A promise that is going to last forever.
His face looks sculpted. Distinctive cheek and jaw bones set the stage for a straight nose and sensuous lips. He truly does look like an angel. A fallen one.
ā€œNo, I wonā€™t,ā€ I mutter in response to his question, which seems to have been asked a lifetime ago. When he takes another step towards me to overcome the invisible threshold of polite distance between us, I move back, hitting the door.
Though the guy certainly is an asshole, I find it hard to hang on to any clear thoughts. His entire posture is brimming with masculinity. His movements are determined, his muscles well-defined under his skin, and his fashionable clothes are merging it all into a perfect appearance.
My mouth is drying up as he reaches out for me. I stop, filled with the energy his proximity produces in me, trying to make myself push him away while at the same time expecting him to grab me ā€“ when he reaches past me to open the door again.
ā€œPity. Iā€™m sure I could come again a second time in your mouth right away.ā€
I move aside to let him through. ā€œIn your dreams.ā€
ā€œI will.ā€ His smile widens into a lopsided grin as he pulls the door farther open. Before passing through it, however, he treats me to another look. His expression changes. The look on his beautiful face becomes more disparaging as a dangerous gleam appears in his eyes. ā€œWhatā€™s your name?ā€
ā€œMable,ā€ I say immediately, before biting my tongue. Why do I even respond to this guy rather than ignoring him?
ā€œAmabelle Weaver?ā€ he speaks my full name.
I gape at him in surprise. How does he know my name?
ā€œIā€™m Jaxon. Jaxon Tyrell.ā€
My breath catches.
ā€œMy father is funding your new life of luxury, and I am going to make it hell. The way youā€™re looking, you wonā€™t last a week. Less than that if you donā€™t give me a blowjob now and then. Think about it, Belle. Maybe youā€™d rather take my orders after all.ā€ His mouth twitches into a diabolical smile before he yanks open the door all the way, disappearing through it and slamming it shut behind him.
I donā€™t dare take another breath before the last sound of his exit has dissipated. ā€œFuck,ā€ I mutter, trying to rub the goosebumps from my arms. This was not how I had imagined a meeting with Jaxon Tyrell, son and heir of the Tyrells, whose foundation is funding my scholarship, to go like. I hadnā€™t even known that heā€™s still studying here. On the other hand, I try not to put too much store by his threat. He clearly is the sort of spoiled dickhead who has looked down on everything and everyone all their lives.
Once I have pulled myself together ā€“ and waited for long enough to give Jaxon plenty to time to get lost ā€“ I go back outside to get my other bags and suitcase.
The dorms are sitting concealed behind the imposing other buildings on campus. Itā€™s much calmer here, in the shadow of the architecturally impressive structures, than it is out in the street. This seems to be one of the buildings that hasnā€™t been fully renovated yet. Hotel-like apartment buildings with glazed balconies, full-depth windows, and ornaments painted white on the facades are stretching on either side of it.
My dorm building is an eyesore between those glamorous buildings.
Did they do that on purpose? Is Kingston University making sure we donā€™t forget who belongs in what caste?
As I walk down the gravel path, I notice a student leaning against the building across from me in a spot of shadow. I smell tobacco. I look at the guyā€™s face the same moment he glances at mine. Itā€™s as if the shadows around him were a part of him.
Everything about him seems dark. His black leather jacket with sleeves turned back, his black boots, black chinos, the black tattoos on his arms, and, last but not least, his eyes, his black hair, and his stubble.
I nod at him in greeting, maybe because I think that having been accepted at the countryā€™s best university also means that Iā€™m expected to be polite.
He doesnā€™t respond, merely tapping off his cigarette and keeping his eyes fixed on me as I pass him by.
Okay, I tell myself, almost like a mantra. The college is full of freaks. The important thing is not to let them keep you from studying.
Coming back to the street, I notice the many spots of color scattered among the meadow. I pass by quite a few of them without paying them any heed, until I spot the black-and-white script of my favorite jumper on one of the fabrics in the grass, making me realize that the many scattered spots are my clothes.
ā€œFuck it!ā€ I look around in anger to spot whoever has come up with this idiocy. I lay eyes on the blonde who was blocking my way before. Sheā€™s watching me with an ugly smile, sitting on the hood of the red sports car, surrounded by her clique, leaning closely into Jaxon, who is now wearing sunglasses and seems to be the only one not caring about what happens with my things.
I roll my eyes at the incredibly childish prank as I start gathering my clothes. ā€œToo funny!ā€ I call out to the group once I have collected everything to stuff back into my tote. ā€œYouā€™ve made it to kindergarten level, havenā€™t you? Too bad that this is college.ā€ There. Thatā€™s the reasonably cool retort easily flying from my lips. The next moment, I wish Iā€™d just kept silent.
The blonde doll is moving away from Jaxon, taking a few steps towards me. Her pretty lips are drawn back in disgust, her eyes reflecting pure hate. ā€œYouā€™re nothing but garbage, just like your cheap second-hand clothes. Itā€™s hardly our fault that theyā€™re begging us to give them the funeral they deserve rather than having to be worn by you again.ā€
Taking my suitcase, I ignore her.
ā€œGo home, bitch!ā€ she is calling after me. ā€œYou and your smelly clothes will never belong here!ā€
Laughter is following me across the lawn. I am angry enough to make my knuckles stand out white from grabbing my suitcase handle with all my strength. What do these rich kids have to gain from treating me like this? How can they be looking to fulfil such a ridiculous clichƩ? They seem to have sprung right from some Netflix show on mobbing at elite schools, picking me as their favorite victim.
Just great.
If the next four years are going to be like a Netflix show, Iā€™ll be fucked.
Two more steps down the path, my suitcaseā€™s handle suddenly tears off. Argh! My arrival at college is slowly but steadily turning into pure torture. Dragging my suitcase onwards, I once again meet the gaze of the guy in the shadows. He is still leaning against the wall. He is still smoking. He is still barely moving.
ā€œThanks so much for your help!ā€ I yell at him in anger.
He doesnā€™t even twitch.
ā€œFucker,ā€ I mutter, fighting my way to the dorms. I no longer wonder that no one is helping me. I seem to have slid right into a parallel world of rich people who see me as nothing but the embodiment of the worthless proletariat. I labor up the steps to the door of the dorms, dragging my suitcase. It slips from my grasp at the last moment. ā€œShit!ā€ I swear, almost in tears as the few things I have brought to college are tumbling down the stairs.
ā€œOh no!ā€ A shrill voice is coming from my right, and a woman is rushing forward, trying to collect the pages and printouts that I prepared for my first week of lectures, and that are now being swept up by the wind, before they hit the lawn.
ā€œItā€™s alright, thank you.ā€ I take the pages from her and am about to turn away. I am not expecting anyone to be nice to me without a good reason anymore today.
ā€œIā€™m so sorry about your suitcase.ā€ The stranger is bending down again to collect the contents of my toilet bag. ā€œI once dropped a suitcase down an escalator. It was in Paris, in the Metro. They have these enormously long stairs there, and in the end, it broke open and all my souvenirs shattered on the ground. It sounded like such a cheap excuse when I tried to explain it to my friends.ā€ She straightens again, pushing the filled toilet bag into my hands. ā€œHi, Iā€™m Harper.ā€
ā€œMable,ā€ I respond shily, finally looking at her properly.
Her hazel eyes widen as she hears my name. Her full lips part slightly. Her entire appearance is enchantingly elfin. I am starting to feel as if I have walked onto a catwalk that has no space for me at all. How can every single person on this campus be so pretty? Harperā€™s dark blonde locks are enchantingly framing her narrow face, and I canā€™t imagine her ever doing anything mean. Donā€™t let her looks deceive you ā€¦ ā€œThatā€™s an incredibly pretty name,ā€ she says reverently, repeating it: ā€œMable.ā€ With her saying it, it sounds a good deal prettier than Iā€™m used to.
ā€œMy full name is Amabelle, butā€¦ā€
ā€œMable is prettier, definitely.ā€
ā€œThank you.ā€ I turn away, uncertain of what else to do, and stuff everything I just collected into my totes.
ā€œI brought your things along.ā€
ā€œHm?ā€
Harper points at my backpack and another one of my bags that Iā€™d left behind on the sidewalk before because I couldnā€™t carry everything at once.
ā€œYou carried them all the way here?ā€ I ask, perplexed.
ā€œI wanted to help.ā€ Harper winks at me, brushing a strand of hair from her face. ā€œI know, there are few here who would. Most are just spoiled rich kids. Iā€™m in my second year. Iā€™ve had to watch them bully people like you so often. This time, Iā€™m here to help.ā€ She gives me a radiant smile and I donā€™t know what to say.
ā€œThatā€™s nice of youā€¦ā€
ā€œNice? I am throwing myself before the hungry sharks for you! Itā€™s not just nice! Iā€™m reckless!ā€ She laughs a tinkling laugh, shouldering my bag, taking my backpack, and holding open the door for me. ā€œIā€™ll come inside with you, and once youā€™ve put away your most important things, Iā€™ll give you a tour of the campus!ā€
Since I donā€™t want to put her off by admitting that Iā€™d rather be alone after all of this, I follow her to my new dorm room without another word.
Harper stops in the middle of the room for a long moment before heaving a sigh. ā€œWell, at least you donā€™t have to share it, do you?ā€
ā€œI donā€™t?ā€ I ask, surprised.
ā€œThe ground floor has ten rooms. Youā€™re five girls on scholarships. Once past freshman term, youā€™ll be admitted to sororities. At least thatā€™s how itā€™s always been. Yeah, I think the bedbugs under the blankets are the only company youā€™re going to have.ā€
My head jerks up, but Harper is laughing again.
ā€œJust kidding. There shouldnā€™t be any bedbugs here. Butā€¦ well.ā€ She puts my things down on the left-hand bed, dropping onto the mattress of the other one. The dorm room is small, but itā€™s generously sized for a single person, affording me more space than I had ever dreamed of having. The window is facing the park, and a desk and cabinet are flanking each of the two beds. The entire room is screaming of luxury to me. ā€œWhere are you from, Mable?ā€
ā€œWoodlyn, Philadelphia.ā€
ā€œOh, thatā€™s not too far from here. Are you going to spend many weekends at home?ā€
ā€œI mightā€¦,ā€ I evade. In truth, I should go home every weekend to check up on Mom and my sister. On the other hand, I am glad to have escaped from the trailer park, and Mom wonā€™t miss me while I keep sending her some money.
ā€œDo you want me to leave you alone?ā€ Harper asks me straightforwardly. Sheā€™s leaning back on her hands and has crossed her legs, rocking one of them up and down. Iā€™d really like to say yes, but I shake my head.
Maybe she can explain to me what has just happened, and why Iā€™ve barely been on campus for an hour and am already feeling as if the universityā€™s elite class had teamed up against me.
ā€œThatā€™s great. I wasnā€™t planning to.ā€ Harper jumps up, linking her hands. ā€œDo you want me to help you unpack, or would you rather do that later? I could show you around. I donā€™t have anything to do until six tonight.ā€
ā€œA tour would be great,ā€ I admit, smiling as well now because Harperā€™s radiance is catching.
She threads her arm through mine, leading me out of the room. ā€œYouā€™ve already seen the ugliest building on campus now. It has to be part of any proper tour. Theyā€™ve been debating whether to renovate this last dorm building as well for years but then they bicker about whether it shouldnā€™t be torn down instead after all.ā€ Stopping in the corridor, she points upwards. A fine line of ornamentation is running along the walls. ā€œSee? They say the building should be a protected monument. Itā€™s said that Jefferson lived here.ā€
ā€œThe president?ā€
ā€œThatā€™s the one. Theyā€™ve already torn down the dorms where the other nine presidents of the Kingston era studied. Seems they want to keep the Jefferson one.ā€ Leading me out the door, she turns to the right. In contrast to me, who is only wearing a simple jumper and comfortable leggings, she is fully made up. Her wrists are jingling with golden bracelets, her white sneakers decorated with emblems, her jeans look tailored to her slim legs, and her top bears a Fendi imprint thatā€™s impossible to miss. ā€œThis is the physics building. Two lecture halls, a few exercise rooms, and the physics lab.ā€ Harper stops outside one of the many architecturally splendid buildings placed in a circle around the round lawn. The campus is enormous, with many nooks and corners, and many places that are more reminiscent of the castle in Harry Potter than a modern university. Instead of on a mountain top, however, itā€™s built in what feels like an infinite forest, visible from all the upper floors and surrounding Kingston like a defensive wall. It not only renders cell phone reception bad but also creates an always-mystical atmosphere even on a sunny day like this one. Even though I had printed out a map for myself and learned it by heart, I am very grateful for the tour. ā€œYou know, I have been most interested in physics so far. Maybe I should change my major.ā€
We are walking through an atrium that connects the faculty of physics to further lecture halls. All the benches and lanterns placed between the properly trimmed lawns are decorated with metal ornaments, making them look like particularly precious pieces of furniture.
ā€œWhat are you studying?ā€ I ask Harper.
ā€œLaw,ā€ she says, miming putting a finger down her throat. ā€œMy father is the Chief Justice.ā€
ā€œWow. Robert Mitchell is your father?ā€
ā€œYeah. That degree is, unfortunately, a sort of a family tradition.ā€ She sighs, beckoning me onwards. ā€œWhatā€™s your major?ā€
ā€œBusiness administration. Iā€™ll try to take as much philosophy as I can, though.ā€
ā€œOh, thatā€™s exciting. The philosophy of success. Thatā€™s quite the reasonable combination.ā€
ā€œCombining opposing disciplines appeals to me.ā€œ
ā€œYouā€™d consider money and philosophy general opposites?ā€ Harper thinks about this for a moment. ā€œIsnā€™t it just that philosophy is a way to explain the money? Money doesnā€™t really have any intrinsic value at all. Itā€™s just paperā€¦ Oh, no, thatā€™s psychology. Psychology is a really cool subject, too.ā€
Iā€™m about to launch into a long answer but realize just in time that her question was purely rhetorical, and sheā€™s already moved on to the next subject in her head.
ā€œThe library.ā€ Harper stops again, gesturing widely. ā€œNo student with her wits together would study there. That makes it the perfect place to avoid everyone.ā€
ā€œGot it.ā€
ā€œYou know, Mable,ā€ she starts after a while, once she has shown me the other buildings and walked out with me through the atrium of the main building with all of its old, awe-inspiring lecture halls. ā€œIā€™d love to end this tour of the campus in the student restaurant, but thereā€™s one more thing I need to show you first.ā€
She leads me up some swerving stone stairs towards a number of crowned lion sculptures in stone before entering a long corridor made to look like a hall by its high, ornamented ceiling. The walls are hung with pictures, starting with immense paintings, followed by yellowed photographs, and ending in brilliant, sharp ones. All of them depict men. Young, white men posing in front of a wood-paneled wall reminiscent of a hunting lodge. ā€œThe Hall of the Wise Men,ā€ Harper says derisively, stopping in front of the last picture with me. ā€œHere they are.ā€
I need a moment to recognize the man posing among three others behind an armchair on the last photograph. Jaxon.
ā€œRemember all of these faces, Mable, and stay away from them. Stay as far away from them as you can.ā€
Iā€™m tempted to ironically ask her: ā€œor else?ā€ but I can about imagine it. Three of the four men look like predators thirsting for something. Jaxon Tyrell is standing there, his hand patronizingly resting on the backrest of a chair that might have been a throne.
His near-invisible smile is the smile of a devil hiding behind angelic beauty. He is enjoying his role as the ruler of hell to the fullest. Tyrellā€™s eyes are glinting like opals that are going to break into pointed, cutting shards if he is angered. His lips are sensuous and beautiful like a forbidden fruit in the paradisiacal garden. His harmonious face suggests kindness and openness, but I know that his light skin and dark blond hair only camouflage the darkness inside him. Itā€™s as if the photograph were speaking to me, as if his spirit were captured in the picture. Iā€™ve only met him for a few minutes, but his threat and the roughness of his words, along with the memory of him getting a blowjob, are impossible to push from my mind.
I already know that I am going to heed Harperā€™s advice and stay away from him. I donā€™t need a second helping of his arrogance.
Although the photograph centers on Jaxon, thereā€™s someone else sitting in the red cushions: a young man who is capturing my attention for a little longer even than the cruel angel by his side. Unless Iā€™m very much mistaken, this black-haired man is the guy whoā€™d been smoking in the shadows near my dorm before.
The photograph makes him seem a lot less dark. He almost looks pious. All his tattoos are covered up by his stylish suit, and the circles under his eyes are less pronounced than theyā€™d been today. I am somewhat curious about how his actual looks fit with the man in the picture.
ā€œSylvian Silvano,ā€ Harper is whispering behind me. ā€œThe guy in the chair. And Jaxon Tyrell right next to him. And this one is Reece Crescent.ā€ She points at the man to the left of the throne-like chair. His hair is somewhat lighter than Jaxonā€™s and his beauty even more perfect. If Jaxon is the fallen angel, then Reece is still flying high in the heavens. He's the only one in the picture sporting a broad and friendly smile, which makes him stand out from the others. He doesnā€™t really seem to belong. He seems far too nice for what Jaxon told me today.
ā€œWhoā€™s the guy at the very back?ā€
Harper sighs. ā€œRomeo.ā€
ā€œHis name is Romeo?ā€ I ask, giggling, and quickly clearing my throat. Harper seems a bit too serious for making jokes.
ā€œDonā€™t imagine him like Julietā€™s Romeo. Romeo Portcharles is like a sharp knife. Heā€™s a living weapon. Stay away from the others. Run fast and hard from Romeo.ā€
Her words send a shiver down my spine. Romeo seems nondescript in the background next to those three beautiful faces. His hair is dark like Sylvianā€™s, but his skin is milky, and his eyes are lackluster.
ā€œJaxon, Sylvian, Reece, and Romeo. They rule the campus. They have been in control of everyone and everything for three years now. Even the professors do what they say. They make no secret out of hating the scholarship holders. Jaxon hates his father, and his father established the foundation that pays for your scholarships after all.ā€ Harper turns to face me, giving me a serious look. ā€œMable, Iā€™m so sorry to tell you about it this openly, but hardly any of the scholarship holders have made it through their first year so far.ā€
I raise an eyebrow at her. ā€œWhat?ā€ is all I can say.
ā€œThe scholarship program is in its fourth year. Fifteen women started studying on scholarships here. Three of them are still with us. Donā€™t let them bring you down, will you?ā€ Harper gives me a concerned look. Once again, I donā€™t know what to respond.
ā€œWhat do students have to do to get onto one of these pictures? Be particularly mean?ā€
Harper is still serious. ā€œGraduate with best results.ā€
So theyā€™re both mean and smart. ā€œIs there such a gang for women, too?ā€
ā€œThere isnā€™t.ā€
ā€œWomen arenā€™t printed in a picture if they perform the same or betterā€¦?ā€
Harper makes a face. ā€œThis is Kingston. Just be glad they let us study here at all.ā€
I raise both eyebrows, but I say nothing else. In all the things Iā€™ve read about the university, Iā€™ve never come across a bad word about it. Yes, Kingston has a conservative attitude and political activism is pretty much absent from campus. On the other hand, they are maintaining a strict female ratio and supporting students of all origins ā€“ as long as they have enough money.
ā€œYou think Iā€™m making this up, donā€™t you?ā€ Harper asks me, turning away from the wall and towards the heavy winged door leading into the next room at the end of the hallway. ā€œI hope youā€™ll believe me once youā€™ve made it through the first few weeks. Maybe this year will be different, hm?ā€
I nervously wriggle my fingers. Harperā€™s suggestions donā€™t sound particularly uplifting. ā€œWhat happened, exactly, that so many scholarship holders left again?ā€
Harper gives me a bitter smile. ā€œMany things did. Listen to me and stay away from the Kings. Thatā€™ll make things easier.ā€
ā€œThe ā€˜Kingsā€™?ā€ I ask, chuckling.
ā€œThe Kings,ā€ Harper repeats seriously. She lets a few seconds pass for the silence of the empty corridor to reinforce the echo of her words, before suddenly beaming at me again. ā€œWhat about it now? Would you like some coffee? Iā€™ll pay!ā€Ā 

JAXON

Five new girls.
Five new toys.
For five rich bastards.
What has this year given us? An Asian one whoā€™ll drop to her knees at the snap of a finger; a skinny redhead who surely will be the first to give up; a little bookworm with glasses larger than my balls; the fuckable blonde weā€™ll certainly keep around for a while; and a prude good girl from the slums who wonā€™t make it a single day on campus if we set our minds on ousting her.
Go on, guys! Put your stakes on the table! I bet Iā€™ll be the first to fuck them all. And that doesnā€™t mean just their little pussies.
Itā€™s their fucking lives.

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